Troubled Thoughts

Sometimes, I wish I had someone who would listen to me with patience and understand what I am going through, what I am trying to say… But when someone says that, I am listening, share, I just go numb. And sometimes people take this as my excuse to attract attention and that I have nothing to say, that I am some pathetic attention seeker…

I have heard this so many times that NOW, even I doubt myself. But I am a human too, right? So, I can’t have it together all the time. I don’t really blame others, its me who is supposed to be blamed, it is always me…I just wish that all these things that I write about, I can speak out, with actual words.

I know I have wounds and they are stinging. And I know they are not imaginary, they are there but I don’t know how to let them out.

Sometimes, I sit alone and reflect on all those nagging thoughts bringing me down. Like now. A tear or two make their way down my cheeks but I wipe them as quickly as I can before anyone sees them. It has been quite a time since I have cried my eyes out without any fear or concern to be found in that state.

I am gonna be okay, I know that too. I want to be okay, so, I try to get back to normal as soon as I can. I just sometimes wish, I had that someone who would hug me and tell me to let it all out without any fear, who would make me feel like I also matter, no matter how clumsy, naive and dumb I can be, I still matter.

I guess I have to be that someone for myself, for now. 

– aak92

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Do You Miss Yourself?

Do you miss yourself?

The person you were before your first loss, before you had your first heartbreak, before you came face to face with the harsh side of this world, and all those double faced people?

Do you miss that version of yourself before all of this?

I know I don’t. I just miss the good old times I had, when I was naive.

– aak92

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Why it Happens?

When we were kids, we used to fight over our parents: Mama, baba are mine!! They are my parents!!

When we grow older, we still fight about them but not for them. We fight to get rid of them: They are your parents!! They are your parents!!

Why it happens???

– aak92

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Must. Take. A. Vacation..

We are strong,

but at the same time,

we are humans.

 

Sometimes, all we need is a little vacation.

A vacation to sit back and shut down,

just for a while…

– aak92

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How to Survive…

Wherever you are, whatever you do, you are always going to be YOU. Even if you change your outer identity, the ‘inner you’ is never gonna disappear. Your memories of your life are your own. No one can take them away from you.

So, instead of feeling desperate and depressed, go back into your past, dig up the happy moments of your life, with the people you love and realize how blessed you are. 

Once you move your attention from the ugly picture of life to the beautiful one, only then you will be able to SURVIVE.

– aak92

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Cracks…

We all are  broken, in one way or another.

Some have more cracks then others; that doesn’t give them any superiority over those who possess less.

To all of us, whether they are big or small, our cracks matter.

– aak92

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Acceptance of Oneself

We, human beings, are same and distinct in numerous ways. We all possess a variety of traits, which make us vary.

Sometimes, those traits can overlap, but it doesn’t mean that you have lost your uniqueness. Similarly, when we differ, when we stand out, it doesn’t make us weird.

It is us, who need to embrace ourselves. It is us who need to accept ourselves for who we are. Once that is done, no one can ever put us down.

-aak92

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