Do You Miss Yourself?

Do you miss yourself?

The person you were before your first loss, before you had your first heartbreak, before you came face to face with the harsh side of this world, and all those double faced people?

Do you miss that version of yourself before all of this?

I know I don’t. I just miss the good old times I had, when I was naive.

– aak92

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A Perspective

There are some things in life which make you cry like they happened, the very moment.  You feel the same level of pain, that you felt months or even years ago. Sometimes the emotions get a lot more intense than they were on that ‘actual day’. And you feel like you can never get over it.

I have been there.

You cannot turn a painful memory into a happy one. You cannot turn a loss into a gain. But you can move your focus form the gloomy picture and take notice of the brighter side.

The pain is part of this life, but so is joy. Now it depends on us, which we choose to keep in focus.

– aak92

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Just A Dream

You were standing there, right in front of me

Smiling that sweet smile of yours

 

My mind said,”Not possible”.

My heart screamed, “Embrace it.”

 

I ran and hugged you tight

It felt so real, so comfy

 

Thought I will never let go

But then my eyes opened

 

I sat up

Ran my eyes around the room

Searching for you

 

How can it be?

Same room, same me

But no you

 

The reality hit me…hard

A tear rolled down

 

It was only just a dream……

– aak92

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Reality hurts…

The Dark Side

Memories play in her mind

Some lost to unconsciousness

Some forgotten over time

 

How much time has passed

One look at now

One look at then

Seems to say: Quiet a lot

 

Back then, things seemed pretty easy

With her family by her side

She had nothing to fear

With her friends there for her

She couldn’t have been more blessed

 

Then she met

The dark side of life

She came to know about losing someone dear

She learned to live without someone, she couldn’t have imagined to

 

She came across

The dark side of people

She learned how betrayal feels

She learned the things, she wished, she wouldn’t have

 

And it changed her

For good or for bad

She couldn’t decide

Not just yet…

– aak92

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Unrealistic Desire

Looking back where he is everywhere

And looking forward where he will never be

She cries

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Remembering the memories of him

And thinking about the memories where he will never be

She cries

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Recalling the moment he was there

Remembering the next he was gone

She cries

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Cries because she still looks for him

In the mist of her loss

Knows that he ain’t coming back

But still she carries this unrealistic desire

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Looking for him in crowds

Finding him and losing him

Over and over again

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Still she carries this unrealistic desire

Close to her heart

Hoping for something totally impossible…

Unrealistic desire of a daughter for her deceased father.

– aak92

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I Hate Remembering It……

The day I lose you

Keep coming back to me

It is a nightmare I can’t get rid of

 

I hate remembering it but

I can’t stand to forget it

 

You used to be there always

Now you are nowhere around

 

I hate remembering it but

I can’t stand to forget either.

For my father 😦

– aak92

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