Troubled Thoughts

Sometimes, I wish I had someone who would listen to me with patience and understand what I am going through, what I am trying to say… But when someone says that, I am listening, share, I just go numb. And sometimes people take this as my excuse to attract attention and that I have nothing to say, that I am some pathetic attention seeker…

I have heard this so many times that NOW, even I doubt myself. But I am a human too, right? So, I can’t have it together all the time. I don’t really blame others, its me who is supposed to be blamed, it is always me…I just wish that all these things that I write about, I can speak out, with actual words.

I know I have wounds and they are stinging. And I know they are not imaginary, they are there but I don’t know how to let them out.

Sometimes, I sit alone and reflect on all those nagging thoughts bringing me down. Like now. A tear or two make their way down my cheeks but I wipe them as quickly as I can before anyone sees them. It has been quite a time since I have cried my eyes out without any fear or concern to be found in that state.

I am gonna be okay, I know that too. I want to be okay, so, I try to get back to normal as soon as I can. I just sometimes wish, I had that someone who would hug me and tell me to let it all out without any fear, who would make me feel like I also matter, no matter how clumsy, naive and dumb I can be, I still matter.

I guess I have to be that someone for myself, for now. 

– aak92

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A Message for You

Dear everyone,

I want just 5 minutes of your life. Ready? Let’s start.

Close your eyes, take a deep breath, and let your body drop into the relaxing mode. Now call to your stronger self. Its there, right inside you. We all have one. But sometimes, we let our fear stand taller than our strength.

Life is like a journey, with a variety of hurdles and mishaps, with unexpected turns and twists. No one had it easy. You might think so, but, you cannot tell the whole story by just seeing the outer picture. You know: people are more what they hide and less what they show.

So, close your eyes and look inside your heart. You will figure out the answers, once you find yourself.

Life is not easy, but you are not weak either. You can get through this. Just believe in yourself and put your best efforts into work. You will get there.

Stay safe and good luck!

-aak92

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This is the Time!

This is the story of your life

A book with you on the cover

A movie starring you

 

What will be the next scene you want to add?

 

You got the page and pen

Let’s live the life that you will write for you

 

Because

This is the time

The time to step out and shine

This is the time to jump

Not caring to fall

Because what you know

You might just fly.

 

There are billion words for wall of fear

But you should rather build a fist of courage

And break through

 

Because

This is the time

The time to step out and shine

– aak92

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Why to Fear???

Have you ever seen that bird?

Who flew from his nest,

And got shot to dead.

 

Have you ever seen those fishes?

Who swam for the sea,

And got served for the dinner.

 

Have you ever seen that dog?

Who crossed the road,

And got run over by the car.

 

Have you ever seen that bug?

Who was enjoying the sunlight,

When it got crushed by the shoe.

 

But have you ever noticed that,

 

All those birds &

All those fishes,

All those animals &

All those insects,

 

Never fear all those disasters &

               all those mishaps,

               all those bad lucks &

               all these deaths,

 

Because they know life is all about this and that.

 

If you ever sit back,

You will lose it all.

 

So, leave the fear behind,

And see what life has to give.

 

Feel the freedom,

Feel the fun,

 

Soar above,

Or walk on ground.

 

With heads up high ,

And fear left,

Far behind.

– aak92

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