Somethings are Better Left Alone…

People are getting tired of asking what’s wrong,

and

She is running out of nothings to tell.

 

In herself, she carries a fire,

A fire of words, of feelings,

of emotions, of stories.

 

Somethings, she will never be able to open up about.

Inside they burn her,

Outside they are nothing more than a wandering smoke.

 

How to fix this,

How to begin…or

Even from where…

– aak92

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The World of Numbness

Sometimes you feel a little down, not your usual self. Like the gloominess has engulfed you and drained you out of all the energy. Sometimes you feel…nothing. Sometimes you just shut down. That’s when you actually wake up!

When this feeling of numbness comes over you, you drop the acting, you allow your deep and sometimes dark feelings to overwhelm you. Even though you still keep your walls way up high, and your lips sealed, still you allow your mind to wander to places you haven’t visited in a while.

At that time, you enter your ‘self’, the one that you keep hidden or show only to few. All that is also a part of you, all that is also ‘you’.

You can’t just bag a part of you and lock it up forever, it tends to come to the surface from time to time. Don’t try to fight it, I know I have tried, it only depresses you more. Take a break, take a time alone or with your loved ones, however you feel at ease. Or like me, spend some time with a pen and a page. Let it out. Ease yourself. Try to connect with your ‘deep self’, so you can go back to your ‘normal self’ with a peace of mind.

– aak92

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Shattered Pieces

There are days when

She herself is shattered into million pieces

But if she gets the chance to tape someone’s pieces together

She takes it

 

When they walk away, happy

A smile appears on her face

Only to be washed away by the thought

Will there be someone for her

Someone who can take time to patch her up

 

Looking at her shattered pieces

And the high walls, she screens herself with

She laughs a little

Her door opens to all

But she ain’t gonna step in just about any body’s house

 

Afraid to put herself out in the world

She keeps her shattered pieces to herself

You can tell, she ain’t feeling ‘on the top of the world’

But her lips her sealed…

– aak92

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I Did Not Realize

Every time my dreams shatter

I tell myself it doesn’t matter

Because you are my dream maker

As long as you are here it doesn’t matter

 

But what I did not realize that

Soon you will be gone

And I will be alone

With my shattered dreams

 

Every time I was down

You used to come around

And get my feet back on the ground

And prepare me for the next fall down

 

But what I did not realize that

Soon you will be gone

And I will be alone

Lying on the ground

 

Every time I want to go for a ride

You used to take me some place nice

We used to eat, we used to play

I used to feel so secure just having you nearby

 

But what I did not realize that

Soon you will be gone

And I will be alone

Looking for a place to hide

 

What I did not realize

Was that I will lose you

So soon…

– aak92

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Wrote it for my father….